Update

So I haven't really updated in a while but I'm pretty darn big right now. I look proper pregnant lol. I am about 2 and half years into this cryptic pregnancy. I feel as though I am near the end but I am not really in control. And even though I feel like I am near the end, who knows. I am just trusting in this process, my resiliency, and my body. There are a lot of days lately where I just want to disappear from my regular life. Forget the businesses I am running and involved with and just stay in my little oasis at home. With the health business I feel like I do not have as much of myself to give people and that is a little bit frustrating but something I'm trying to adapt to. At my other business, the deli,  I feel like physically I do not have much at all and I really have no patience for waiting on customers.

Mentally I feel really great. I feel like things are happening in my life that are what I have asked for and dreamed of as far as my health business. And helping people has been so rewarding and it is what I am meant to do.

I feel recently all of the work I have done to let go of things and process problems and traumas has really opened me up to feeling ready for whenever these babies are ready to come. I feel more so than ever that my heart and soul have been freed up to be open and there for these little souls. I think I am finally in a really great place for whatever comes next.