Invisible

Invisible...perhaps that is how I have felt my whole life.  Always overlooked, always forgotten about, never really that important....

And now with my family and friends everything that I am going through is ignored and passed over. Not a word is spoken about any of this and has not been probably for about a year. So I live in the shadows, we had a birthday party for my mom and I just hid in the corners. Multiple people came up  to me at the end and said "Oh I must have missed you..." Ya missed me haha. 

I've gotten really good at hiding in the shadows and maybe I've been doing that in some ways my whole life. At this point I need to protect our energy and now I just attend things that feel right. Always having your guard up and having to deal with the looks and whispers drains me immensely and why would I want to put myself in situations like that, right now I feel like I have done so much to clear all the shit that does not serve us anymore, there's still a bit because there will always be a little shit but right now I feel like I am in such a good space mentally. I feel like my heart is full and I am just embracing and ready for what will come next on this journey....